Me:	Hey things are going pretty good.
My life:	Hey, dude, things kinda make sense right now, looks like you need a new problem.
Me:	Always stressed, and on the verge of either an anxiety attack or a mental breakdown, or both.
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People:	You shouldn't be stressed, too much stress is bad for you. Just chill out a bit.
Me:	Do you realize that by saying that you are making me more stressed? Do you realize that you could try and help me instead of just trying to fix it?
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People:	Grinding your teeth is bad, you should stop.
Me:	You think I like grinding my teeth, its just a fun thing for me?
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Teachers:	Why can't you focus on things, why do you talk to people so much, why isn't your homework done?
Me:	Because I don't care, and its being forced upon me, sometimes I just need to talk to be able to be productive in the first place.
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People:	You should share what you think, we really like hearing what you think, and feel.
Me:	Starts talking about a thing.
People:	Talk over me, or interrupt me.
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People I just meet:	Hey, you're a pretty cool person, I like you we should be friends!
Me:	Says hi to the person a week later.
Person:	Where do I know you from?
Me:	I guess I am just so insignificant that I actually don't exist to people.
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Me:	Has an anxiety attack on my trampoline.
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Wow this went south really quickly, it started out as me trying to be witty, but it just turned into this pity session about my life, and none of these things are even false. I actually feel like this a lot, if not most of the time and NOBODY even understands at all. I say that I might cry, and I actually mean it. If I am legitimately feeling bad that day, do NOT be surprised when I actually cry because I'm so stressed out and its the only way that my body, and my brain know how to handle it. It is just awful for me, because I feel like no one is listening ever. I will try to talk about something that I really want to talk about, or is important to me and I feel like nobody is listening to me. Sometimes people will listen to me, and acknowledge me and I will feel really great about myself, but sometimes even THE NEXT THING that person says makes me feel insulted and I am right back to where I started, if not farther back than I was before. It's such a vicious cycle and I don't know how to get out of it. I don't know why I need confirmation, or acknowledgement on almost everything I say, but right now I do. I will be trying to change that to a certain extent, but right now people need to start vocalizing that they are interested, and hear what I am saying. I just feel really awful all the time, and people and school are the biggest reasons. The thing is I need both of those things, I just need them in a way that works for me, and right now it isn't. Something needs to change before I get so far stuck that I don't even want to feel better. I also need to start being in a better relationship with God, I know that will help things, but I just feel so distant, like its too hard. This just keeps getting more, and more, personal.